I have four followers!!!  I want to reach out to them and call them and thank them…I need to send them homemade cookies or flowers or at least a thank you note…in lieu of that…thank you followers!!!  Hey…thanks so much…

Especially since I have yet to find my voice and my focus.  I think that for now my blog is just going to be a blog about sometimes having something to share.  Let’s take today.  For instance.   I have not been  feeling sad lately about being a tragic orphan but today I missed my mom.   I used to talk to her every day…she knew all about my students at school…she would ask about Jake and Jack…the zebra finches…and Lucy…and I would want to entertain her with funny stories just to hear her giggle.   How sad is that…how sad am I today…sad…yep…just a little sad.   I am such a happy person…I am still happy even when I am sad…isn’t that sort of sad?   I have framed lovely photos of her all around the house…beautiful lovely framed photos of my wonderful mom…who died not even a year ago.   What worries me is that someday I will not feel sad…do you get used to not having a mom?   I cannot even imagine it but there are days now when I don’t feel sad…and then I feel guilty about not feeling sad…mix that in with actually being sad…today is like a rainy day in my soul…