OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!

I have four followers!!!  I want to reach out to them and call them and thank them…I need to send them homemade cookies or flowers or at least a thank you note…in lieu of that…thank you followers!!!  Hey…thanks so much…

Especially since I have yet to find my voice and my focus.  I think that for now my blog is just going to be a blog about sometimes having something to share.  Let’s take today.  For instance.   I have not been  feeling sad lately about being a tragic orphan but today I missed my mom.   I used to talk to her every day…she knew all about my students at school…she would ask about Jake and Jack…the zebra finches…and Lucy…and I would want to entertain her with funny stories just to hear her giggle.   How sad is that…how sad am I today…sad…yep…just a little sad.   I am such a happy person…I am still happy even when I am sad…isn’t that sort of sad?   I have framed lovely photos of her all around the house…beautiful lovely framed photos of my wonderful mom…who died not even a year ago.   What worries me is that someday I will not feel sad…do you get used to not having a mom?   I cannot even imagine it but there are days now when I don’t feel sad…and then I feel guilty about not feeling sad…mix that in with actually being sad…today is like a rainy day in my soul…

2 thoughts on “OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!

  1. MarthaE says:

    Sorry to read about your loss. I lost my mom when I was 21 and that was hard…I missed a lot of grown-up things with her! And I still get sad and misty some times and it has been over 30 years. Still have my Dad though – he will be 86 in a few months!
    I love your finches! I had MANY several years back! Started with only a couple but at one point I had 76- cute little breeders!

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