Everyone around me is sleeping and Den is sick and trying to stay away from me! But my white blood count is way up after two weeks without chemo so he can stay around me. I am getting Neulasta today for the first time and hopefully that will make my cells even better…yesterday I had stronger chemo so that’s why I can have Neulasta…I have no clue if that’s good or bad. I am pretty much afraid of everything lately. I still cry…I still worry…I still get sad. Other than reading I am not the same Me and I am not sure if that Me will ever come back…sigh!


I read the first few pages of The Futures and loved it.

However…out of the blue…quite a few ebooks came in from the library…Overdrive actually…so I switched to this one because I have not read this author before and I always wanted to. So…I started it and I am into it and I read a review that said it veered away from the great way she usually writes. I am reading it anyway.

More library ebooks…

All authors I want to read!

Have a great day!







14 thoughts on “Today…

  1. Stefanie Ng says:

    I'm glad there are a few lights in the grey of your chemo journey, Patty. I don't think you can expect yourself to be the old you before your diagnosis. There is an altered but new you that may emerge one of these days. I'm sorry you have worries; I think that's natural of us, humans. It can't be helped. Hopefully voicing here on your blog helps as a catharsis.


  2. Mary (Bookfan) says:

    I've only read the first in the Penny series but I liked it and hope to get back to this year. The audiobook was wonderful.
    Hope Den feels better soon – so many bugs going around right now. Hope the new med keeps you strong. Hugs.


  3. Patty Magyar says:

    I think that's why I say things here, Stephanie. It feels safe and comforting when I am trying to be strong. And you are so right about an altered me…I feel that daily. Just talking to the nurses who do the chemo where I go weekly is enlightening and they make me feel safe. One of my nurses said to not think of myself as sick…because I am not sick…I am different for a while. Thank you for your words.


  4. DMS says:

    Glad your white blood cells are up! That is awesome. Hope Den feels better and you keep getting better. Looks like you have some books to keep you entertained. 🙂


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