After my treatment yesterday…we got home at about 2:00…I walked upstairs, took a shower, got in bed and slept until 6:15…when Den literally had to shake me to wake me up! I don’t remember dinner at all! OMG! I think that a part of the treatment is an infusion of Benedryl which gives me really twitchy legs there and knocks me out when I come home.
Today I went to make a reconnection visit with our primary doctor. He made time for us to talk about all that has happened to me since surgery in July. He answered every one of my questions so patiently. I barely cried! He again…stressed that positive attitude that I have to have and its effect on my immune system…I think I am positive but every now and then there are tears…sad tears…pitiful tears for me that I try to get past. How sweet is it when your doctor hugs you and kisses your head before you leave! Of course I cried again!
Plus…certain parts of my life are on hold for now. I can’t really travel…I am about 75% of my old self…I am often not hungry…I can’t use my normal toothpaste…I can’t use my normal mouthwash. I can’t be around children. I can’t get manicures or pedicures…I can’t go to movie theatres. I get steroids once a week, too, and I think I have “roid rage”. It’s just petty stuff that won’t be forever…but…I miss it. I won’t miss the steroid rage…neither will Den. I cry really hard when I talk to my sister Paula…especially when she says she knows my mom is watching over me. I cry when I talk to my brothers. I know it embarrasses them but I still cry. I cry when I talk to my sister in law Betsy because she always is so calm and has great advice. I cry when I talk to my sister in law Kathy because she just keeps telling me how much she loves me. I cried when I talked to my brother in law Chris yesterday just because he says sweet things. Hmmm…I think I might cry a little no matter whom I talk to…that’s what my neighbor Jane says…so I just warn everyone that I am going to cry! Debbie the Nurse at the treatment center says it’s ok to cry…but I am trying not to overdo it! Sigh!
Writing this post today is making me cry…just a little!
Reading and loving this book! I think it’s YA but it reads a bit older…I guess being at a boarding school is most definitely a sign of YA. Watson is a boy…Holmes is a girl and it’s in our time and they are generations removed from their Watson and Holmes relatives. The writing is fun! The writing is delicious. The characters are cool. The plot is fascinating!